On a personality scale, I am definitely more of the fearful/anxious type. I was the type of kid who would watch her friends ride the amusement park ride 20 times before getting the nerve to go on it myself. I read book after book about horses, wanted nothing more than to ride my own horse, but when given the opportunity to pet a real, live, horse I dug in my heels and wouldn’t budge. I still remember my grandmother’s hand on my back trying to push me closer and closer to the horse.
Perhaps it is because of my wild imagination. I could easily imagine that horse turning to bite me, or swinging his rump around to kick me across the room. I could imagine it so clearly I could even see the looks on the faces of the people around me when it happened.
Or perhaps it is what scientists have come to discover about introverted personalities, that my brain creates brain chemicals differently than extroverts and thrill-seekers. I get enough of an adrenaline rush just sitting around reading books, thank you very much! 🙂
Regardless of why, being a fearful sort of person does make it difficult to fully experience all that life has to offer. I have had to learn in my life the art of being fearful, but doing things anyway. On the positive side, there is always a great sense of accomplishment on the other side. When you do the things you fear, you become a stronger person.
But there are holdouts. Things in my life that I have been afraid to do for so long that they seem insurmountable.
One of those things is learning how to drive a car.
Yes, I am a woman in my 30s who does not have a driver’s license.
Truth be told this was not really a huge issue when I was living in the city. It was really easy to just hop on the bus (the stop was right across from my house) and there were numerous connections to trains and subways if I needed to get further. Even my own two feet could get me to a whole host of places within relatively few minutes.
But there are no buses to take where I live now, no trains, and no subway system anywhere in the entire province! And very few places are within reasonable walking distance.
So I need to learn to drive.
And I know it will be ok once I get started. With fear, usually the first step is the hardest.
Do you have things in your life that you are afraid to do? Take a step towards it today and together we will conquer our fears!
When I am most afraid I remember this:
“I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears” (Psalm 34:4)
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13).